the GRAND. :D
it was a horrible day. gna fast forward the whole day of school through, coz its just not tht interesting.
after school is where all the fun starts.
school ended at 2, and went for the media club meeting. then moved on to the hi idol meeting at 2.30.
oh fuck your shit larhs please. word spreads like wildfire, and i'll fufill this wish you have. and guess what, you have a teacher on your side! like i even care? please.
you so know who you are.
then went for phy prac. did did did and ms chong wasnt here, so dismissed at 4.30. then went canteen and waited for *AHEM*, while playing and learning stuff with dawn.
so wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait and wait.
and guess what! when *AHEM* came, *AHEM* said not gng somewhere.
first instinct? CHEE BAI.
LOL, i know. but what was i suppose to say? haha okay? if you think so you can go and fuck the wall alrdy larhs. ((:
this is what i wrote a long time ago, during tht phone conversation with *AHEM*:
"he always pang seh us for them. countless times i'm not even gng to recollect. i know its difficult to juggle 2 grps of friends who are totally differnt in hobbies and personality and totally cant gel. but you do not entertain one grp of friends at the expense of the other. its just not fair."
and the other time you wrote on a certain platform tht : "this is between me and you. don't drag others into it and if you wanna fight, do it openly and not in the shadows. im up for it. i wont die without you as a friend."
i hereby apologise for reproducing any part of it w/o permission. but think about it. you say i shouldnt drag ppl into fights. but did YOU ever think of what you did. you always clain your parents are always right, youre always wrong. but think deeper. when you made tht 'slip', what effect did it have on you whatsoever? NOTHING. but me? did you ever think it in tht manner? its called tit for tat you dickhead.
and FYI, when you talked the stupid LONG conversation with me on the phone, i had a rebuttal for EVERY point you had. but i kept it to myself. coz i respected your veiws. and guess what? you become cocky. plus, you said i "remained the same" do you have any idea tht in the past i just use to speak my mind? and coz of what you said, i have to be weary of what i say, coz you may not like it.
and whats the point of apologising just before you wna rant? WHATS THE FUCKING POINT?
i realised i've changed. i used to just wait for you to apologise and not caring abt what you had to say at first, but for the last two incidents, i was the one, calling you to try to clear up as much doubt. and because of what someone said, i tried NOT to scream at you. and mind you at tht time i wanted to scream so loud i didnt give a fucking damn if my family heard me spewing profanities. and because i didnt, i felt like i was gng to explode!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and with tht, i thank you, johanna, for releasing tht pressure. (((:
so now im gng to throw back at what you said to me.
I WONT DIE WITHOUT YOU AS A FRIEND.
it sounds childish, but whatever. its the truth, the cold hard truth. and boy can i hold grudges. remember, darren goh?
11:05:00 pm
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