the GRAND. :D
no wait, love HER or hate HER, tht is the qn.
oh.my.god like seriously luh. i so liked you better whn you were all like zen-ned up or something.
my teacher said *this person* has so much faith in me. you know, not like others who will hurl insults like: you're a pig, you're stupid etc.
you see, my dear teacher, what you see tht day was one thing. now, the real show begins behind closed doors. exp behind my house's doors.
wooo, creepy eh? LOL
and now whn other ppl's *ahem* (choked) are encouraging for the first time, mine's being like real nasty for the first time. guess there really is a first time for everything eh?
i always wondered. if this behaviour brought me up till i was 16, would i be who i am now? nope. i have a theory, tht i would be some rebellious fucktard tht STILL doesn't really do well.
well, tht versus the fact tht i'm not so rebellious now but still not really scoring academically.
yepp. lazy, lack of effort, bleh bleh bleh (i usually only remember first 2, coz always standard one) are the causes of this outcome. and yeah la hor? i deserve it eh?
" only _________ boys fail leh..."
yea go fill in the blanks yourself coz i dont wna offend no one and i dont want tht person to get beaten up for saying this. and yes, maryse, i have a conscience. like seriously.
maybe, no wait, I'M SERIOUSLY those who just cant sit dwn and study. just coz you can does not mean i can too! if not, would i be where i am now? duh no?!
you re all selfless and dunnoe what shit. damn if only i was like 30+ right now. then you can zip it up on your selfless-ness crap. pronto.
its not my fault i'm still 16!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
two thoughts keep popping up.
1) say bye bye to this crap and start afresh, independently.
2) screw the fucking o levels luh.
what JAE, DPA, JC, DJCA, GCE?!!! fucking abbreviations! (*&^%$!@#$%!
so the qn still lingers.
love HER or HATE her?
i think tentatively, its the latter.
oh and now i'm finding solace in being able to be left alone for 5 days! oh joyyyyy!
oh and you, my dearest sister(s). i'm glad if you read this. i'm even MORE happy if you show this to whom-ever i'm mentioning here. coz seriously, it will be HELL lotsa fun!!! but too bad most prolly i wont be staying to catch even the prelude of it. ((((:
P.S. to my dearest sister, a sethesscope is worth mentioning? god i can see how limited your ability to strike a conversation is alrdy. and thanks ar, coz of tht right. 5 fucking phone calls from the same fucking person. now when i see the number, i seriously WONT pick up.
and so, tht concludes my opinions on PTM. guess you can see its a bummer, aint it?
LOL.
last laugh is on me though.
11:08:00 pm
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